<--5:54 P.M. October 11, 2003-->
HAPPY BIRTHDAY STEVEN ...
I've Cried so much this week I could have drowned in my Tears.
I woke up and my Eyes were Burning out of my Skull.
I looked in the mirror and my Eyes looked Psychotically Patriotic Red/white and Blue.
I took a shower and Cried some More.
I Cut my Leg while I was Shaving Accidentally on Purpose and watched my Blood and my Dreams go down the Drain.
I looked at all my Various Scars and Sadly I can remember how I got each One.
I am so Unhappy and Sad I really haven't eaten much in the past Week.
I have no Appetite and I keep Losing more Weight I now weigh 100 Pounds.
Years ago I almost Killed myself with eating disorders to be this Skinny and now I could care Less.
I don't Drink or do Drugs anymore and quit Smoking 3 years ago .
So I am Painfully Sober...
And I have found even more ways to Self Destruct..
Sunday October 12th is My Dead Fiance's Birthday.
I LOVE YOU STEVEN STILL.......